Field of Reeds

Most people say that fairy tale is always fairy tale, it can be true. Of course, I do not deny this point. But I also see that people tend to be too realistic that they forget how to imagine, how to hope.
I think people born to have a talent of being pure, however, with the time goes by, this gift slowly disappeared. It is sad.
Sometimes I am glad that I am a little "kindlich", the world outside is too complicated, like 1900 said" I did not see an end, but the piano always has an end, 88 keys." World is a complex, we have to face it, but we ahve to keep our nature, follow the heart, and do it right.
Evil is always defeated by justice. Princess always has a prince. Fairy land is walys a paradise...these are not true, yes, but I can make them right in my heart.

在不影响健康的情况下晚睡，在不影响心情的情况下早睡, this is a sentence copied from my Douban group. It tells exactly what I have to do now. I kind have a habit of going to bed late, since I have been in Hong Kong, this habit never change. Everytime, my mom told me to go bed early, it is healthy and city people are too careless about their health. I know, and I tried, failed...
The group also summarized a rule of people who have this habit:
以周末的起床时间来给人群分类的，例如：
8：00以前 中老年人
8：00-9：00 小屁孩儿，补课学生，新婚少妇……
9：00-11：00 稍有放纵的小青年
11：00以后 极其潇洒的自由主义者，内心深处住着天山童姥
obviously I belong to the later two groups.
What should I do? yeah! Go to bed as early as I can. Bang now is 12:30 in the evening. Saying is always easier than doing.

Kenxin, the man I...and admire the most.
Kenxin....!

上杉達也，上杉和也，三杉淳...
還記得這些名字嗎？
在遙遠的從前，天天趴在電視機前，只為看上他們一眼就滿足，瘋狂喜歡上他們的單純與拼搏，喜歡看他們在球場上奮斗的樣子的我好像已經不見了。當時的熱血沸騰，面紅耳赤的我已經消失了。我是這麽想的，應該沒有錯的。
如今的生活，我也不知道應該怎樣評價，只是覺得自己不再有那種決心，不再有一種衝動，不再宣揚自己要控制生活，不再大聲喊出自己的夢想。變了，如今按部就班的生活好像已經讓我滿足，嘗試着去改變，卻發現“我”這個對手好強大，自己在“我“的面前變得軟弱無力。就算今天的我信心十足，改變了10個小時的生活，明天的我還會繼續嗎？我現在不敢打包票阿...
在不知名的原因下，我開始重新看起了這些動畫，突然發現我還是沒有變，當初的我還沒有完全消失，我很高興，我變得亢奮，以至於晚上失眠。可能過去的太久，人就開始淡忘，變得無所謂...人啊...
（此文在我沒有睡醒的情況下寫成，不知所云..........）

Great harvest,great harvest...
I received a number of wonderful New Age Musics, like Instrumental Paradise Volume from Mehdi, Homecoming from Jim Brickman, Erotic Moods from Nusound, Nights from the Alhambra from Loreena McKennitt, they are all great musicians, thanks to their beautiful work!And I am almost done with me book, the Search for Omm Sety, and reading a new one, the Last Empress.
Film, yes, film...Zodiac, Becoming Jane, solino,The Nativity Story, Alien Vs. Predator, Criminal Minds

I went to an interview today, for a volunteer work in Cambodia this Dec, but seemingly I have messes it up. No way I can still have the chance to go, yeah, I already knew when I walked out the interview room. This was the first failure in all my interviews, a record!
I can blame no one but myself. I really wanna to take part in this work, it is so meaningful. But I did not pay attention to the preparation of interview. I knew I would probably required to use Cantoniese, I did not practice, I was very confident, and I was wondering that I can show myself in the interview. But things go always beyond your expection, the interview was not individual which I am good at, but a group interview. Oh My Amun-Re! I am always be the silent one in all groups, no matter what group. I knew I have changed a lot since I took the German class, now I am not the most silent one, but...After individual introduction there were only 5 minutes left, it did not leave many chances, and I also did bad in my introduction.
No need to say...no need to say...