Field of Reeds

Tomorrow ,yeah...finally comes. I have to leave for Berlin, Germany, for a 20-day summer course which maybe I can improve my German. Actually I am a little bit afraid. This is my first time travelling alone. Gods know what will happen.... But I made a rough travelling plan in Berlin, I will visit the museum island, pay a visit to the famous Nefertiti bust, also I wanna see other places of interest.

come on,sweet death

i know,i know i've let you down
i've been a fool to myself
i thought that i could live for no one else
but now through all the hurt and pain
it's time for me to respect
the ones you love mean more than anything
so with sadness in my heart
(i) feel the best thing i could do
is end it all and leave forever
what's done is done it feels so bad
what once was happy now is sad
i'll never love again my world is ending
i wish that i could turn back time
cos now the guilt is all mine
can't live without the trust from those you love
i know we can't forget the past
you can't forget love pride
because of that,it's kill in me inside
it all returns to nothing
it all comes
tumbling down,tumbling down,tumbling down
it all returns to nothing
i just keep
letting me down,letting me down,letting me down
in my heart of hearts
i know that i called never love again
i've lost everything everything
everything that matters to me,matters in this world
i wish that i could turn back time
cos now the guilt is all mine
can't live without the trust from those you love
i know we can't forget the past
you can't forget love pride
because of that,it's kill in me inside
it all returns to nothing
it just keep tumbling down,tumbling down,tumbling down
it all returns to nothing
i just keep letting me down,letting me down,letting me down
it all returns to nothing
it just keep tumbling down,tumbling down,tumbling down
it all returns to nothing
i just keep letting me down,letting me down,letting me down
ah……ah……ah……ah…… tumbling down,tumbling down,tumbling down
ah……ah……ah……ah…… letting me down,letting me down,letting me down
…… ah……ah……ah……ah…… tumbling down,tumbling down,tumbling down

由於我的一句戲言最終促成了我的北京之行，可以説是可喜可賀阿。這還得感謝我的母母，在此謝過。
終于在7月的6日5點，我們一家出發了，一路上唧唧歪歪，到北京已經是下午的2，3點了吧，我也記不得時間了。除了飛機場才發現我們的團隊居然有50人這麽多，真是浩浩蕩蕩阿，我淚阿。。。我不太喜歡這麽多人一起遊玩，但這次有沒有辦法，誰讓我們全家一起出去呢？我也知道認命了。又是唧唧歪歪的擠上了大巴士，車子行駛在北京城的街道，看到的都是不高的樓房，聽到導遊正在說：北京不僅是歷史文化之都，而且還是風水之都，這就是為什麽北京的樓房都不高的原因。我還以爲是什麽政治上的原因（説不定有，誰知道呢？），才不能閒高大的樓房。不過帝王之都畢竟是帝王之都，經過歷史的浸泡，骨子裏的那份王者之氣消失不了的。
車子還在開着，聽到導遊說我們今天的第一站就是天壇，哈，不錯，我正想看看古代帝王祭天的地方呢。看着車窗外的景色，聼着北京導遊介紹着天壇，好享受啊。所謂天壇，就是古代帝王祭祀天的地方，北京還有地墰，日壇，月壇。雖然古時候的帝王可以算是人間至高至聖的存在，自稱為“天子”，但是他們對於天的敬畏之情還是有增無減的，畢竟他們還是奉天之意，行使王權的。買過門票，邁入了天壇公園，這裡的百年古樹還真是讓我開了眼，它們的蒼勁有力，飽經風霜是那樣的深刻有力，我想他們應該是見證了歷史中的好一段進程的。我不禁想去摸摸那樹身。走着走着，突然天壇的屋頂躍入了我的眼睛。那天的天氣不是怎麽的晴朗，所以那屋頂也不是印象中的金碧輝煌，而是好像籠罩在一層薄薄的霧紗之中。走進了看，才看得真切。導遊又開始了講解，她說天壇的整體建築就是爲了突出皇家的威嚴以及天的高高在上。常理中，皇家的建築都應該是紅墻黃瓦，但是天壇卻是紅墻藍瓦，因爲這藍瓦代表的就是天。但是仔細的看看着藍色的屋頂，卻和皇上的帽子有點相像，原來這是皇上給世人的一條信息：再怎麽說我也是人間至尊。登上了祈年殿，左右拍攝，卻縂也找不到好的角度，要不就是人太多，要不就是光線不好，可把我一頓好急。擡頭看了看招整個建築，好像剛上好了油漆，嶄新嶄新的，屋簷下面金色的壁畫光彩奪目。祈年殿裏面是不讓進去的，大家只好站在門口往裏面不斷的伸頭伸腦。我費了九牛二虎之力終于擠了進去，只見大殿裏面高柱頂立，彫樑畫柱，同樣也是金光燦燦阿。大殿的兩邊還擺放着祭品。我記得好像有豬頭，羊頭什麽的。走下祈年殿，我們來到了回音壁。其實所謂的回音壁就是一面圓形的圍牆，但是裏面有什麽奧妙，人們又是怎樣發現的，確實不得而知阿，我不禁讚嘆古人的驚人智慧。在回音壁的外圍，導遊走到了一棵樹的面前，告訴我們那就是有名的九龍柏，因爲其樹身的形狀像極了九條龍，盤繞樹身。此樹由此得名。身在皇城，什麽事都得往這方面想啊。。。走入回音壁，導遊讓我們嘗試了一下它的效果，果然有電話般的奇效阿，只是古人建這回音壁來做什麽？回音壁的正前方就是皇上與上天對話的地方，整個建築取“天園地方”之說，有3園型高臺組成。高臺四周全部用龍頭來作裝飾，氣勢龐大。建築的每層都有9級臺階，對於固然來説9時最大的數字，皇帝和田對話的地方當然應該是最神聖的。站在空曠的第3層，懷望四周，直覺景色豁然開朗，再仰望天空，好像有近在咫尺。那天天空陰沉，太陽光也是慘淡的白，站在高地心裏毛毛的，好像上天並不怎麽高興。趕緊溜了下來，四處亂逛，聽到高地上小孩子的高聲吼叫，想想這地方的傳音效果還真不錯，不過心裏倒是譏笑着這群小孩：當心上天真得不高興了。皇城這裡方，看着這些景，心裏就會變，就算以前再怎麽蔑視所謂的真龍天子之說，到這裡還是有幾分敬畏。
吃過晚飯，開車游夜北京，導遊說：上有天堂，下有囌杭，比不過十裏長安街。是嗎？我心裏暗暗說到。剛想着，便到了著名的長安街。現在的長安街已經是世界上最長的大街，足足有50裏阿，不過輝煌的也只不過短短10裏吧？只見長安街燈火輝煌，流光燦爛，好一派繁華的景象。突然天安門出現了，人民英雄紀念碑出現了，人們大會堂也看見了。其實我注意的是天暗後面那沉默的故宮，嚮往的故宮。

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Today there was a storm in my family, my mother and me were both very angry and upset. During a talk between me and my mom, one sentence impressed me greatly. My mom said that one can only do one thing in his or her life, and he or she must do it greatly and with all his or her heart. Yes, that is right! Now I am looking for THE thing I should devote my life, maybe it will be my Kemet, yeah, I will try my best to make my dream come true. And we also talked about how to be a responsible man during life time. Yes, I agree with my mom that one must have some disciplines of his or her own, be independent, be thankful, be determined, be hard-working. Thanks for my life-long teacher: mom, and thanks for the blessing from Amun and all Kemet Gods and Goddesses. Thank you all!

Ohahaha, today I have a exciting news: I can go to Beijing for a five-day trip. Honestly, I have been dreaming of a trip to Beijing for a long time. The sights, the history and so on really attract me a lot, I really wanna pay a deep visit of the Forbidden City. Also, because I am a Chinese, I should go to the capital city of my own. Any way, ich freue mich darauf, dass ich endlich nach Beijing fahren kann.

It was my dream; to build up a forum about ancient Egypt. Since I was a senior school student, I was dreaming of a forum, there I can share my interests with different firends. But I also found that, most of the dominions need money, I have no money, so my plan was delaied. Instead I joined almost every forum about Egypt, however I felt that those are not satisfactory, I always wanna my own. Tow days ago, I had a rush of building up this forum I desired, and I found a website which offers free space for forum, now I have my own forum, and it is under construction. But I know that being a excellent forum is very hard, especailly being a outstanding ancient Egyptian forum.

During the second day in Cambodia, the visit of a tomb really impressed me very much. It is not exactly a tomb in the normal sense, but it is more likely to be called as a monument which is filled with skulls from uncountable victims in the past history. In cambodian history, there was once a group of communists who controlled the destiny of Cambodia, like the Cultural Revolution in China during the 1970s(Maybe), those communists persecuted a great muber of people, mainly scholars and people who have been educated. The place I visited is actually execution ground in the past, my guide told me that there were so many people were killed that later the government built a monument only for storing the skulls of those victims. Thhis was my first time to see so many skulls in front of me, so lifeless, so pale and so horrible. My heart was trembling all the time. This is really a place of the dead, the entire ground was covered by the atmosphere of death.
Walking around the monument, I could easily find the bones from the dead, I tried to avoid stepping on those bones, I was afraid to disturp those people, really I was afraid. Alone that rpad, I found that a pile of bones were collected by people, putting them into a small house made of wood, serving as a tomb, I guess.
I think human beings are the most brutal creatures on earth. There is no need to compare. People can simply kill their fellows just because of different opinions, different perspectives, differnet religions.
Yesterday I met a boy on the plane, who is studying in Yale. He too have no good feeling about religion, especailly Christianity. Those so called believers took the name of defence of religion, in fact they just wanted their own profitable interests. Those cambodian communists were the same.